Oh Lordy, what a year!
So much has happened both personally and professionally for me in 2016, but I feel like the most significant shifts have only occurred in the last week.
Let’s see if I can wrap it up in a paragraph or two:
The year started well with my 5 year old off to Prep for his first year at school. Super excited. Everyone was on a high.
My coaching business was motoring along at a steady pace and I was passionate about building and launching a new membership hub called ‘The Woman Rising Network’ to offer women classes and digital resources. The hub launched in April to crickets (I’m being completely honest here) despite being flooded with emails of support and congratulations, no-one actually wanted to be a Member (D’OH!). So no members. No moola.
Move to June and instead of attending my oldest child’s first sports day, I took a four-day detour to the Hospital’s isolation ward with my beautiful 7 month old boy for 4 long, cold, lonely nights to help him recover from Salmonella Gastroenteritis.
Cut to July and August when I disconnected from the world (in more ways than one) and went underground to question everything I was doing, who I was as a Mum and what my legacy was as a business owner.
I questioned my purpose. My passion. My ability to be a business owner.
On top of all of that I couldn’t believe I ‘allowed’ by baby boy to become really so sick. I thought the fever would pass after a day or two.
The questions and self sabotage rolled around in my head like dice on a Craps table. I kept playing with baited breathe to finally roll a winner, but would come up Trumps (pun intended).
At home, things continued to go up and down as my partner and I discussed whether or not we’d buy a house. If now was a good time, or should we wait. Should I go back to work or keep going with my dream. Endless conversations. Endless concerns if I was ‘doing the right thing’.
My boys grew. Played soccer. Learnt to walk and started swimming. All the key things you don’t want to miss as a Mama.
I started exercising again. Then I’d stop…again.
I relaunched my business as an online hub for women to obtain digital classes anywhere anytime and connect with a community, but I also supported more and more women online offering their own ‘breakthrough’ classes, signing up to everything I could get my hands on expecting to find the solution to my self-inflicted stagnation.
I danced. I sang around the house. I Cried. Laughed. Loved. Threw tantrums. Watched tantrums unfold. Created ridiculous excuses. Stayed up waaaaaaaay too late watching episodes of Suits, Gilmore Girls and The Good Wife. I applied for work. I made new friends and planned trips overseas with old friends. I read a thousand self-help books.
Life happened. Shit happened. C’est La Vie.
But then this week. Boom!
In the immortal words of Tony Robbins, “You spend years living life, but real change happens in a moment.”
In a matter of three days I had not one, not two, but three different taps on the shoulder from the Universe telling me to wake up! Stop living from my head and start connecting to my heart to finally live the life I deserve.
Wake up #1 – My spirit guides gave me a big smack down.
Early in the week I had a business strategy meeting with Intuitive Clare Fitzgerald. Her words were hard to hear at first because she was asking me to do something that triggered pain from years gone by. I wanted to run to the hills and completely ignore her advice, but with her kind, loving words she helped me realise that only I had the key to not only unlock my full potential and cultivate my best life, but nothing will EVER change if I remain in my head. What does my heart genuinely want, need, desire and how can I honour it?
It was one of those conversations when you know what they’re saying is true, but you’re wishing in vein that you can find some credible excuse to get out of doing the hard work. But she called my bullshit and I love her for it!
Wake up #2 – A long beautiful heartfelt conversation with a friend.
I won’t go in to details suffice to say that I held safe space for her to talk and she did the same for me. We cried. We laughed. We celebrated our achievements. We didn’t try to ‘fix’ each other but simply acknowledged that we had the power to point our life in the direction we wanted and were no longer willing to sacrifice our hearts to please others.
Wake up #3 – I watched the Anthony Robbins doco “I’m not your guru” on Netflix.
If you’re seeking real change in your life and love a big dose of personal development, holy s*#t, you have to watch this!
In all honesty I’ve never resonated with his style of teaching before, but watching this movie and how he connects with his audience I was able to understand his purpose and passion in a new way. I understood why the crowd of 2500 people were screaming, crying and jumping and down on their chair a la Tom Cruise on Oprah’s couch. It made sense and I drank the cool-aid.
Ok, so I didn’t wrap up the year in a paragraph or two, but the point of this post comes down to this: You are enough. I am enough. We already have everything we need inside of us, but we let our head call the shots. We try to keep safe, small and secure in our humble ways. But what the hell for? Who are we sacrificing our lives for? What power do they hold over us and why are we still letting them?
If we let go of the shoulda-woulda-coulda’s and embraced our true self, could we finally open ourselves up to cultivate our best life from the heart instead of just talking about it?
I asked myself these questions and am now asking you.
In celebration of my recent spiritual ah-ha moments, I’m offering a free live class this Friday 16 December to provide several tools and tips to help you cultivate 2017 with intention and purpose.
I’m so pumped to move in to the new year, but I don’t want to let it run me. I have goals and plans. People to see and places to be. I want to make great happen and I want you to join me. Let’s do this!!
How to cultivate your best year, hosted by Sian Yewdall, Founder of Woman Rising Network.
Free to attend at 12.30pm, Friday 16 December 2016 (QLD time approx 45mins). It’s relaxed, informal but full of real practical tips to help you let go and make great happen.
More info and live stream is here: Cultivate Your Best Year
If you can’t attend, the recording will remain on this page until 31 December, or sign up to the WRN newsletter and I’ll email you a link after the event.
In the comments below, tell me some of the key moments from your year and any light bulb moments of your own. What do you hope to achieve next year? Will it be a year of results, or another year of excuses?